10.8.21

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Don't say what do you mean

when you mean to say

I'm frustrated, angry, and confused.

By inviting more confusion into the room

we're pulling apart from each other.

You see me less. You focus on obscurity.

You're commitment to misunderstanding

frightens me.

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Imagine if you believed you could

understand me. Mother and child

aren't meant to blend seamlessly.

There will be fights. We both will

act like we don't understand

the clearest words. We should

just say elaborate. On your idea 

or the problem you are expressing.

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That's probably exactly what you mean.

I didn't want to explain myself further.

I hoped my desperate tone would

translate the message.

But you didn't know.

It's my responsibility to let you know.

Not all my words mean to you

what I want you to know.

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When you say "what do you mean"

I question my own reality.

Did I not just bear my soul?

My eyes have to swell

My jaw has to quiver

Now you know.

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