5.2.21

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       One day I'll cry easily.

  When I'm filled with love

 I will cry. Let my body shake

uncontrollably. All those years of not

crying feels like my back is cramped.

My emotions are strangled. My spine 

bending, threats of snapping

 Leave me paralyzed. 

I won't move anymore. I won't

go anywhere. I'll just cry.

 I honestly feel like my body will

hit a breaking point where I will

have to stop. Stop walking, stop

working, stop masturbating, stop

dancing. My body wants to cry but

I'm stopped up. I feel tightness

in my stomach, my abdomen.

My knees feel like chalk

grinding against stone. Slowly

rubbing away the softness.