6.13.21

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I am not a homo.

I'm a homosexual.

Emphasis on sexual,

as the most prominent

confusion of my life.

Sex is simultaneously

everything I want and

all that I avoid, all

I ever think about.

Except when I escape it.

I want to touch a woman.

She is not a play thing

nor experimental. Although

I'd like to try touching 

her body. She might

like the way a homosexual

lushes on her body.

The way I harden

I'd feel wretched on her body.

Not a dummy toy - 

I rarely play.

Not lately I've explored.